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Joker by Rich Hennemann

A few months back there was a sound, a sound like none other. A sound in which I thought I never would of loved. It touched my heart and left a memory I couldn’t forget. As I heard the sound I stared at what it was coming from. There he was long black curly hair and crystal blue eyes. I was blown away by the skill he had in his hands and his voice the song he sung, the song he played. A boy who I never liked before, suddenly took my breath away and I was frozen. As I spoke to him his voice sounded like the ocean waves so calming and relaxing. So sweet and open he expressed so incredibly. As I go through the summer I hear the song again and his voice still rings in my head and I can still smell the smell of that day I can hear all the sounds I heard I can see his eyes again and my heart can be full:)<3

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It sucks to be in a family where it is completely broken I mean, my parents split and my dad never really cared for family my mom lives twenty minutes away and my dad got remarried and is happily living happy with his wife and cares about her needs and her family. My sister brother and I are completely different people and don’t always get along and my younger brother flies high in the sky with the blue jays that he loved so much. I just don’t like the fact that everything is broken and that it will happen to me someday. Will it happen to me? Or will I find someone who I actually love and care for. Someone who I would die for their well being? Speaking on that note what’s with guys these days? I thought I found a perfect boy to fall in love with and he was until something changed and he turned out to care more about his status then someone who actually loved him. Then another boy. He hooks up with me and doesn’t like to talk to me just when it started being the other way around I questioned myself did he start to have feelings for me? So I haven’t seen him for like five months and he starts being nasty to me? I don’t get it? I tend to feel like I will be the one girl who never finds love, no matter how kinda I am? I have never had a boyfriend before. Although I came close in impossible situations. I mean yes I have had my first kiss before but did it mean anything to him? Or was it just a way to get what he wants? And I can’t stop myself from hooking up with him I can’t because it is so hard to control myself around him… So in the end will I have a kid and be a single mother for the rest of my life? Or can I learn how to take control and maybe find the boy I have been looking for and create the true family I never really had?

After for the longest time of falling in love with what I thought you were I’ve finally found someone else someone who can treat me with respect and who can treat me as a friend instead of a no one… Thank you for what you have done now I know not to trust guys like you…

Has every situation in your life go like this,

Hello, I love you,

Oh wait nevermind, my best friend likes you, or 

Oh I didn’t know you were going out with my friend,

and lastly, 

Oh… you like dudes,

yep not that easy but you gotta look forward to the future in order to make one,

REJECTION

may come once in a while,

for others more than once in a while,

but you gotta just keep on believing :D